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Worries and unexpected consequences…

Posted by blueraindrop on November 8, 2009

I’m worried. 

You’d think that by this point I would have learned my lesson well on trusting god to provide and have no doubts…. but no. I’m still worried. (Maybe why the lesson keeps going on and on and on..?)

 

So, in this state, unemployment extensions are not an automated process.

This sucks. Greatly.

Because it means they have to be processed by overwhelmed workers… and while it does backdate to make payments for the expected 4 weeks of backlog in processing…. it still means a 4 week gap in having any income.

And, unfortunately, things just got a ton more complicated for me.

 

As things were, it’s posted on the website that they are currently processing for a date that’s about a week before mine. So, i should have had roughly 10 more days until seeing the backpayment for the weeks of processing.

However. The extension that I was transitioning onto wasn’t one of the federal tiers… it was a state tier. No real big difference normally, it just comes from a different budget.

And… it requires that you have exhausted the federal tiers first. Not a problem…. normally.

 

But, the lawmakers just passed a federal extension. And so, in the process, have made me ineligible for the state tier, because I’m now eligible for the new federal extension.

Again, it normally wouldn’t make a difference…. but right now… while my state transition is still in processing…. it makes the world of difference.

 

Best case scenerio: they approve the state tier because i was eligible as of the time of the transfer, pay the backlog weeks, and keep that going until federal is approved.

Worst case scenerio: the state tier is rejected entirely, because i am now eligible for federal, thus meaning they wont pay the back weeks, plus, another 4 week gap (or more… from all the other now eligible people) before the federal tier will be processed. A total of 8 weeks without income…. stretching until nearly Christmas, and only 4 of it to be paid eventually.

Most likily scenerio: the state will be approved, but only for the 2 weeks prior to this past week when the law changed, followed by the 4 or more week wait for federal approval…. which wont start until 10 days from now when the state is rejected, thus meaning a 2 week space not covered by either.

 

I know they meant well with the change. and i suppose it is a good thing for most people. but for me, right now…. this is really not a good change. it’s really really bad timing.

a 4 week gap i could handle… but not without some stretching already. i am totally and completely not prepared to handle another one immediately … with or without 2 weeks worth of backpayment to split them.

what happens if i have to? a giant mess, probably taking much longer than 4 weeks to clean up…. especially if it goes worst case.

 

sigh. but there really isn’t much i can do about it beyond prayer. what’s gonna happen is gonna happen either way.

 

oh, and did i mention that my car picked the middle of this to start acting up? and not only that, but the computer isn’t recording the computer code so that my brother can just scan it with his system and find out precisely what the issue is.

 

in good news though…. by a good sized miracle, i managed to get a z h u  z h u  pet (spaces to distract google) for boo for christmas… at walmart!  not that walmart is that great of a place.. or an unlikely place for a toy… but these things are already next to impossible to find…. so getting one at walmart means i paid 8 bucks for it directly… vs the 35 that they are ending up currently on ebay.. or worse on amazon or craigslist… a number thats sure to go up in the next month as more people get looking for them. i’d actually been fighting with the walmart website trying to get one and it kept only staying in stock for 2 minutes at a time and kicking it out of stock before i could confirm order.

this thing is basically a robotic stuffed hamster.. about the size of one… it has sensors to be able to tell where it’s at and interact appropriately, plus furby-type interaction with kids. well worth the 8 bucks… not so much the 35… nor would i have gotten it for her at 35. but 8, i can handle.

though… currently… i’m eyeing the thing with a price tag on its head. we get into worst case scenerio, and the price on these guys rises more… and we just may be having a hamsterless Christmas around here.

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Old vs acting old?

Posted by blueraindrop on October 31, 2009

As I’ve mentioned a few times, we live in a neighborhood that is mostly older adults. My mom and stepdad, in their early 50’s, are actually towards the young end. 

We did get 2 new preschoolers on the block this year, but other than that, there is only one other house at the other end of the block with kids. Most of the neighbors have grandkids who are almost teenagers or older. 

 

So, halloween. 

The block is pretty much closed. About 7 houses have their porch lights on… and of those, only 2 were actually answering the door (and 1 of those was my mom!). The rest of those 7, left porch light on, lights obviously on in living rooms, but just didn’t answer. I felt like leaving notes that they would have a lot less knocking if they would turn the porch light off.

So, we drove over to a church trunk or treat at a large church, then to my aunts, then to my grandma’s house. Which was more than a bit awkward, having not seen her since the whole “have a nice life” christmas card, but civil enough.

 

And, as we have the past 3 years, we trick or treated there.

About half of the houses had either porch lights or decorations up. The ones that had lights of those, answered. (We didn’t bother the ones that didn’t have either porch lights or decorations, unless they had the front doors open.)

But oh the decorations!

These people put on a show. Lots of flying bats. Lots of spooky music. Tons of people answering the door in costume. 

Quite a few houses the people would set up in chairs outside… with or without fire pits.. or hide and scare kids.

 

Now… the irony…. is that this neighborhood is filled with even older people than ours! It’s seriously mostly retired people, many around my grandma’s age.

And yet, they have fun!

They enjoy the kids, many of whom are probably grandkids and great-grandkids of the other residents.

The difference never ceases to make me think.

 

Sure, the people over here had less effort. But at the end of the night, I bet they were still just annoyed at the doorbell and glad it was over.

But I always wonder what it is… that makes the difference. Is it just that the neighbors in the other neighborhood were having fun, and it spread by community? Is it a difference in relating to kids? Is it just an individual decision not to be grumpy and withdrawn?

I dunno. But whatever it is…. it makes a ton of difference. To everyone involved I’m sure!

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How much is a chance worth?

Posted by blueraindrop on October 24, 2009

So there’s this job opening.

It’s a company that does call centers…. has one not too far away actually that i’ve known a few people that had once worked for…. but this job is a work at home job.

Which, really, would be great. Both for child care issues, losing the commuting issue possibilities, and because it would let me move around and change positions and such to make things easier on my wrist.

So, its a reputable company… and pays by the hour instead of by the call… offers benefits for full time, which most work at home don’t… inbound calls, mostly customer service… and if i decide to move, city2 is on their list of allowed states.

googling them, i found a news thing that they are planning to increase their at home staff by 2,000 before the end of the year. and, several news stories about work at home trends mentioning them as a stable company to work for.

 

here’s the catch though.

i would need to buy a wired router, a new headset that has usb connection and digital conversion built in besides just the noise canceling, would need to change my internet to dsl, and would need to purchase an upgrade for my computer to run their program. 

i have no problem with any of this really…. if i got the job.

but that’s the thing…. it will not let you apply without first making you run system tests, connection speed tests, and voice quality tests for the headset.

 

it specifically states that you must apply on the computer and connection you would be working from, and will also run the verification tests if a job is offered, and you have to send in something to them to get permission to work on any different system and have that system tested too before using it.

so, to apply for the job, i’d have to put down at least 30 for the system upgrade (which would actually be to the newest version), 30 for a headset that would be uncomfortable to wear while working or 40 for one with the cushioning, and whatever the deposit would be to start phone service and dsl here.

just to apply…. before i’d actually have any idea if i had a chance of getting the job, or if they would be able to offer daytime hours… or anything like that.

 

is it worth $100 or more to apply for a job? 

i’m having a bit of a rough time with this one. 

i’ve applied to literally hundreds of jobs… so overall i’d say no.

but… if this keeps away the folks who aren’t willing to put in the costs (even most call center people are going to own a headset that doesnt have usb and/or the conversion built in)… then maybe this could be a good thing.

and, there are other work at home call center things i would probably also need similar setups for. though most pay by the call or commission and can’t guarantee volume, or can’t guarantee you’ll get to work enough hours, or have goofy bidding processes to be accepted onto different projects. or are outbound calling for sales.

 

but it also happens that this is really about the worst time. at the end of the month is when my extended unemployment ends. fortunately, the state right now has an additional extended benefit thing… and the application goes in automatically after i am no longer eligible for this tier…. however, there is a 3 week processing time.

so. i know i have 2 weeks more…. then will have at least 3 weeks without income coming in, but with all the normal bills going out. oh, and car tags and taxes due for the year in the middle of it. and copayments for kiddo having baby teeth pulled, only one of which is having issues but 3 of which they want to pull by looking at the xrays.

can we say really not a good time to be asking me to buy things with no promise of being able to use them for your company? how hard would it be to allow me to go to your office nearest here and apply, then test my equipment when i’m ready to start working for you?

 

sigh. but it sounds like it could work out so well if it did go through.

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And so it’s late October…

Posted by blueraindrop on October 21, 2009

Bad sign: the catalog company i’ve worked for over two past holiday seasons usually starts advertising for seasonal workers the last week in september, starts testing and interviews first week in october, and starts the first training group around the 13-14th of october. Here all three dates have passed, and not a word yet.  

usually they are pretty safe in the economy, being filled with very cheap (junk) items, and a lot of their customer base on a fixed income to start off with. but maybe not even thats enough this round.

I’ve thought about driving out to see if they are taking aps in person, but its close to half an hour drive away… so i’ve yet to make it. which freshly reminds me of how much i hate this drive, especially in winter… especially when snowing…. as its out about 2 miles from where the highway goes down to just 2 lanes, and isnt plowed or sanded at all…. nor is the parking lot… where i’ve had to have help with shovels a few different times to get my car out at the end of a shift.

Which actually reminds me of a whole host of other things I hate about this job… including the pushy sales expectations of random items following nearly every single item they order, especially when their customers are mostly homebound older people who don’t understand very easily. sometimes the sales thing is actually helpful…. they order the snowman shower curtain, i offer the matching hooks, rug, “commode cover set”, towels, etc so then they don’t have to give me the 10-12 digit item code for those. but its based on the same sort of thing as the “customers who purchased this item also frequently purchased”… so… if hercules hooks went on a half price sale the same week as a revolving christmas tree was, guess what i get to try to push on confused people buying the tree a month down the road?

and, probably the bigger deal breaker…. i physically can’t do the work extendedly. 

my wrist has issues with tendonitis…. that flare up when i’m typing extendedly without breaks of doing other activity. and the cubicles are not adjustable to change position or make things even close to ergonomic. so even with my wrist brace, after the 3rd or 4th week i’m taking pain killers at least daily… and dealing with numbness and sometimes twitching.

the wrist has flared up throughout both seasons of working for them before. so i have no doubt it will again.

 

so, i know that i dont like the job. and dont really want the job.

but still…. knew i could get hired for the job easily, and make it through a few months anyway before back to looking for something permanent. and right now, a job i dread is probably better than no job at all…. so i’m still kinda thrown a loop by their lack of online hiring. 

made for a nice security blanket of hope anyway.

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The human heart is the most deceitful of all things…

Posted by blueraindrop on October 12, 2009

 

 

(these kinda overlap… but i’m going to leave it as it came..)

 

Things I’m having trouble getting from head to heart right now:

 

 

* gods long term goal is not the sidelines.

it sure feels like it right now. but, a player who doesnt play isnt of much use. yes, they may need sidelined at times for recovery, rest, correction, etc.  but, its not the long term vision.

 

* that “he who has begun a good work in you” actually has a good work going. currently. 

again… right now i’m kinda feeling like a toe. nice to have around for balance, not really all that noticed if its missing, and its main purpose really seems to be slamming into things that it should have known were there in the dark, and being sore from rubbing against things that don’t fit quite right. feeling a bit lacking in a sense of purpose and usefullness.

 

* i’m not supposed to be able to fix everything. Including messes that i made myself. i’m not expected to do things that I can’t do.

I’m human, god knows this, and he intentionally made me not capable of fixing everything by myself so that i would be reminded of my need for his help. 

a child who has shattered a lamp might have consequences to avoid a repeat, and/or to make things up to the lamp’s owner…. but they would not be expected to unshatter the lamp.

i’m supposed to ask for help… to cry for it when needed… not to just feel hopeless because i can’t make everything new again, messes be unmessy, and all my world running just right.

 

* that he is willing to help. 

yes, i know that he _can_ help. but _will_ he help in this case is sometimes a different question. and i know that when he doesn’t intervene there is a good reason in the long run… but i’m finding myself having a hard time being optimistic of my chances of getting help

as far as even correcting prayers, following the request immediately with “or give me a clue as to what direction i’m supposed to be going to try and fix this” which i’d say really doesnt show much faith in help being given. 

 

 

 

they’re things i know logically…. in the mental part of my brain. most of them i know have a long train of verses to back them up that i can at least halfway quote.

(example, ps 81…  

6 “Now I will take the load from your shoulders;
      I will free your hands from their heavy tasks.
 7 You cried to me in trouble, and I saved you;
      I answered out of the thundercloud
      and tested your faith when there was no water at Meribah.)

but right now, they are having a tough time winning over the heart and emotions of what i feel instead of what i know.

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Normal again on something!

Posted by blueraindrop on September 30, 2009

It amused me some time back when I found an article on the cities that the most people wanted to move to, and many on my list were on their top list as well.

But I found an article this week from a major publication (from back in may, but that i hadn’t seen previously) that goes further.

 

This time, it’s cities that young college graduates are moving to for atmosphere and surroundings that they want to live in, even if not having jobs yet, because a lot of them don’t have much reason not to in the current recession after job losses.

Seriously… it’s that specific of a match.. lol!

“The worst recession in a generation is disrupting migration patterns and overturning lives across the country. Yet, cities like Portland, along with Austin, Texas, Seattle and others, continue to be draws for the young, educated workers that communities and employers covet. What these cities share is a hard-to-quantify blend of climate, natural beauty, universities and — more than anything else — a reputation as a cool place to live.”…
…Some had already lost their jobs where they used to live, so there wasn’t much keeping them there.

“A lot of people figure there aren’t jobs anywhere, so they might as well be where they want to be,” says Mark McMullen, a senior economist at Moody’s economy.com.

 

Their big example in the article is portland, which wasn’t on my list. But they have a list on the side… with 20 cities on it. Of those, 7 were on my list even after the first rounds of reductions. (though, in some cases I was focusing more towards particular suburbs)

Of my top 5, the only one not on the list was city2. But, well, it fits the mold too even if not listed. Maybe actually a good thing that it isn’t listed… 

Always surprises me sometimes when I realize I’m not as far out in left field insanity as it sometimes feels like I am.

Though, also sounds like the walls I’m banging my head on are pretty par for the course too. 

 

http://online.wsj.com/article/SB124242099361525009.html

‘Youth Magnet’ Cities Hit Midlife Crisis
Few Jobs in Places Like Portland and Austin, but the Hipsters Just Keep on Coming
By CONOR DOUGHERTY

PORTLAND, Ore. — In October, as the stock market tanked and the economy shed 400,000 jobs, Matt Singer moved from Oxnard, Calif. to Portland, Ore. He didn’t have a job, but he was attracted to the city’s offbeat culture and hungered for change. Mr. Singer’s plan was to get an editing or writing gig at an alternative weekly newspaper, the job he was doing in California.

Seven months later, the 26-year-old is still without a steady job — and still here. “I wasn’t really aware of how bad the job situation was at the time,” says Mr. Singer.

This drizzly city along the Willamette River has for years been among the most popular urban magnets for college graduates looking to start their careers in a small city of like-minded folks. Now the jobs are drying up, but the people are still coming. The influx of new residents is part of the reason the unemployment rate in the Portland metropolitan area has more than doubled to 11.8% over the past year, and is now above the national average of 8.9%.

Some new arrivals are burning through their savings as they hunt for jobs that no longer exist. Some are returning home. Others are settling for low-paying jobs they are overqualified for.

With his search for a journalism job coming up short, Mr. Singer has spent thousands in savings, and is now earning $12 an hour at a temporary job scanning loan documents, a task he says is so mind-numbing he listens to his iPod all day. “Careerwise, it’s definitely not what I’d like to be doing,” says Mr. Singer.

The worst recession in a generation is disrupting migration patterns and overturning lives across the country. Yet, cities like Portland, along with Austin, Texas, Seattle and others, continue to be draws for the young, educated workers that communities and employers covet. What these cities share is a hard-to-quantify blend of climate, natural beauty, universities and — more than anything else — a reputation as a cool place to live. For now, an excess of young workers is adding to the ranks of the unemployed. But holding on to these people through the downturn will help cities turn around once the economy recovers.

Portland has attracted college-educated, single people between the ages of 25 and 39 at a higher rate than most other cities in the country. Between 1995 and 2000, the city added 268 people in that demographic group for every 1,000 of the same group living there in 1995, according to the Census Bureau. Only four other metropolitan areas had a higher ratio. The author of the Census report on these “youth magnet” cities, Rachel Franklin, now deputy director the Association of American Geographers, says the Portland area’s critical mass of young professionals means it has a “sustained attractiveness” for other young people looking for a place to settle down.

Indeed, the trend has appeared to continue. Between 2005 and 2007, only eight metropolitan areas — many of them bigger — added more college-educated migrants of any age than did Portland, the nation’s 23rd largest metro area, according to an analysis of Census data by William H. Frey, a demographer at the Brookings Institution. A more detailed breakdown by age isn’t yet available, but Mr. Frey and other demographers say the bulk of the movers are likely between the ages of 25 and 39, the most mobile age group by far.

Portland’s bleak job market might seem like a reason to stay away, but some of the newcomers say the pull of a different city is greater than the fear of unemployment. Some had already lost their jobs where they used to live, so there wasn’t much keeping them there.

“A lot of people figure there aren’t jobs anywhere, so they might as well be where they want to be,” says Mark McMullen, a senior economist at Moody’s economy.com.

Portland isn’t discouraging the young and educated from coming, though the glut of workers puts more stress on city services. One of the most important factors in a city’s economic success is the education level of its work force, says Harvard University economist Edward Glaeser. Cities such as Detroit and Cleveland that have exported college graduates in recent years are trying to retain them with everything from internship programs to building artists’ lofts.

“I’m hopeful people will stick around,” says Portland mayor Sam Adams. “Even if they come to my city without a job, it is still an economic plus.”

As migration within the U.S. slows as jobs disappear and home prices fall, Portland is one of the few cities to which people of all ages are moving. Of the top 25 destinations for domestic migrants between July 2006 and July 2007, before the recession started, Census data show only four drew more people in the subsequent 12 months, between July 2007 and July 2008, when the U.S. was in recession, according to an analysis by Mr. Frey.

The four places: Portland, Seattle, Denver, and Houston, which in addition to attracting college graduates, enjoyed a boom fueled by high oil prices. In Seattle, the number of people in the labor force, both working and looking for work, has continued to grow faster than the national average, even though there are fewer jobs.

The inflow of young college grads helped change Portland’s economy over the past two decades. Most notably, it contributed to an increase in the fraction of Oregon workers with college degrees to 28.3% in 2007 (above the national average of 27.5%) from 19.5% in 1990 (below the national average of 21.3%), according to Moody’s Economy.com. Of course, some of that increase came from older educated migrants, as well as homegrown college graduates.

Portland’s culture and businesses have come to reflect the city’s youthful edge. Among U.S. metro areas with more than a million people, only Seattle — another magnet for the young and educated — has more coffee shops per capita than Portland, according to NPD Group. Roughly 8% of Portlanders commute regularly by bike, the highest proportion of any major U.S. city and about 10 times the national average, according to Boulder, Colo., bike-advocacy group Bikes Belong.

Andrew McGough, executive director of Worksystems Inc., a Portland nonprofit that helps people find work, says he’s seen young people continue to stream into the city even as the economy has worsened. “Assuming they are educated, we like it,” says Mr. McGough, who moved to Portland himself without a job in the early 1990s.

Portland’s vibrant music scene was part of what drew Ryan Suarez, a 28-year-old civil engineer, from San Diego two years ago. In February 2007, when Portland’s unemployment rate was about half what it is today, Mr. Suarez took a one-week trip to scout for jobs, lined up five interviews — and got five offers. But construction work has slowed with the rest of the economy. Mr. Suarez says his firm has had two rounds of layoffs; he survived, but took a 20% wage cut. “Things have changed a lot,” he says.

Tyler Carney, a 29-year-old computer programmer, moved here from Tulsa, Okla. in September when the Internet-security company he was working for relocated to downtown Portland. He was laid off two months later, and today is living off the $417 in weekly unemployment checks. He has trimmed expenses, such as cutting out restaurant meals, ending cable and switching to slower Internet service. Mr. Carney is spending most of his days job-hunting, but has no plans to go back to Tulsa anytime soon. “Portland is a little more progressive than Tulsa was, as far as the culture goes,” he says. “This town is awesome. Tulsa tended to roll up the streets at night.”

Scott Thompson, president of Lexicon Staffing, Inc. in the Portland area, says the information technology staffing firm continues to get calls from new arrivals looking for work. Many, he says, are less interested in jobs and more interested in Portland’s quality of life, such as the city’s proximity to the Oregon coastline and the Cascade Mountains. “You have to wonder what would inspire someone to walk into a situation where you have higher than U.S. average unemployment rate,” he says.

For Brian DeGrush, 28, it’s a visit he paid to the city two years ago to see friends. He says he loved the social life and the green landscape, and when he went back about a month ago with his girlfriend, it was to scout out jobs and neighborhoods to live in. On Saturday, he graduates from the MBA program at the University of Illinois at Urbana-Champaign, but hasn’t yet found a job.

If he doesn’t find work soon, Mr. DeGrush says he and his girlfriend will probably just move to Portland over the summer and hope for the best. “We’re debating just trying to find part-time stuff and scrounging by until something more permanent opens up,” he says.

As unemployment has risen, businesses have felt the pain. So many restaurants have closed in recent months that the Portland alternative newspaper Willamette Week recently started a column called “Restaurant Apocalypse” to keep track of closings. “Everybody is holding on to their money,” says Ryan Birkland, a Portland artist who does abstract paintings of flowers and koi fish on glass, sheet metal and other recycled materials. Mr. Birkland sells art across a range of prices, but says sales of $400 to $500 pieces, which are mostly purchased by young professionals, are down about 25% compared with this time last year.

The scarcity of jobs has college grads competing for positions they might not have considered just a few years ago. HotLips Pizza, a local institution that touts ingredients from nearby farms and whose owner drives a stubby electric car emblazoned with the restaurant’s rouge lips logo, recently posted a job for a sous-chef and got hundreds of résumés in the space of a few days. They were both over- and under-qualified, ranging from the executive chefs at fine dining restaurants that have closed to unemployed computer technicians with zero experience in a kitchen. “People are having a harder time landing,” said Greene Lawson, HotLips’ chef.

Boly:Welch Recruiting, a Portland firm, says it has had several lawyers willing to settle for work as paralegals. The firm says it generally won’t place the lawyers because their over-qualification makes it unlikely they would continue to do paralegal work when the economy turns.

Stephen Anderson, 28, a lawyer who moved in June to Portland from Austin, says for now, he’s happy being over-qualified. He went to Boly:Welch looking for legal or temp work of any kind, and the recruiting firm ended up hiring him to be an assistant to the firm’s recruiters, a job that includes answering phones, getting lunches and occasionally walking the owner’s two poodles. “I know I’m underemployed and if it bothered me more, I guess I’d do more to change it,” he says.

Of course, less-educated migrants are being squeezed, too. Chris McGee, a 29-year-old concrete finisher moved to Oregon about four years ago from Philadelphia to follow his then-girfriend. Mr. McGee was out of work for seven months and exhausted his unemployment benefits. But after applying for dozens of jobs at convenience stores, fast-food restaurants and other places, he finally got a job washing dishes. “It’s just to stop the bleeding in my bank account,” he says. “I’m thankful for it, but it’s just temporary.”

With jobs scarce, some Portland newcomers are going home. Adam Pollock, 36, moved from New York to Portland in December, lured largely by the natural beauty and vibrant cycling scene. “In New York, if you want to get anywhere decent you have to battle traffic for a half-hour on either end of the ride,” he said. Mr. Pollock, a computer consultant, rented a small apartment with a month-to-month lease, figuring he’d trade up after he found a job.

He spent months sending out résumés and trying to drum up consulting work. He looked for work as a bicycle mechanic and as a barista at some coffee shops. As his savings ran out, he finally punted. “It got to the point where, fiscally, the clock had run out,” he said in a recent phone interview from Louisville, Ky. He was visiting relatives on his way back to New York.

Write to Conor Dougherty at conor.dougherty@wsj.com

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Fall fire fears

Posted by blueraindrop on September 30, 2009

Turning on the heater for the first time of the year scares me to death.

 

There is actually a somewhat direct reason for this, going back to my sophomore year of college. (Longish story warning)

Freshman year I had lived on the 9th floor of a dorm, and as heat rises, I don’t think we turned on our heater at all during the winter. But sophomore year, I was in a much smaller room on the first floor of a much smaller dorm.

This room wasn’t frequently used, as it ended up being between the building office and the building managers apartment, and opened directly into the building lounge. It also was the first window from the locked door, so got people knocking on it trying to get into the building who didn’t live there.

So, it basically only got used when things were really full, and that year they were. Apparently, the previous few years it hadn’t been… and it was really dusty.

After I’d had the room for about a month or two, the weather got cold. So I turned on the heater.

And all of that dust and build up from a few years sitting all got kicked up, and burnt up.

 

I didn’t realize it yet, but my room had a smoke detector. One of those really loud industrial types. 

I discovered it pretty quickly with a near heart attack to go with the discovery.

Fortunately, it wasn’t connected to set off the ones in the rest of the building, but I didn’t realize that. I’d been woken up by way too many tromps down then back up 9 flights of stairs in the middle of the night by false alarms in my previous dorm, and waited way too long in the cold in just jammies for firemen to arrive and clear the floor that had triggered it.

The office was closed. The manager was away. Nobody was in the lounge, or anywhere I could see them on the first floor at all.

So… what do I do?

 

I ran down to the bathroom, turned on one of the showers, and stood in the little changing area outside of it to pretend I didn’t know what was going on and hadn’t been in my room.

Yes, really really logical. As if the fact I was fully dressed with no towel or soap in sight wouldn’t have been a clue?

I suppose in the long run it was probably better than calling the fire department or something else rash.. but standing there shaking with my heart racing in full panic mode was definitely not one of my most helpful solutions to a problem.

Eventually I calmed down enough to realize that I couldn’t hear it anymore. And a full ten minutes later was brave enough to actually leave the bathroom, expecting to step into total chaos and inquisition.

Instead I found a completely quiet hallway. And a quietly running if still musty smelling heater. If anybody else had noticed at all, nobody said anything.

 

But since that time, I have been scared to death of there being a fire when I turn on the heater for the first time of each season.

But this year, it’s worse.

 

I dunno if I’ve mentioned the occasionally malfunctioning sump pump in the basement my stepdad hasn’t fixed in the two years it has been doing it, but every month or so water backs up in my basement instead of being drained off. Not a huge huge amount, we’re talking like a 4 to 6 foot wet radius around the drain it’s supposed to go down…. but enough to be annoying, and to get boxes and such wet if I don’t watch where I put them.

But apparently at some point this summer, it got a bit further out, and had gotten into the bottom of the heater, and gotten trapped when the rest of the water went back down. So there was like 5 mm or so water on the bottom floor of it when I went to change the filter.

Nothing big… easily taken care of with the shopvac… only wire even near the area is a really thickly insulated power cord type of cord… and the area down there is just between the ducts and the intake anyway, so mold getting into the intake is probably the biggest issue it might cause.

But still.

After opening all the doors and windows and preparing to turn it on, I flipped the themostat, then ran back downstairs armed with my kitchen sized fire extinguisher and a giant flashlight. As if had there been a fire, it wouldn’t have produced it’s own light?

Smoke detector downstairs went off for a few minutes, then stopped. Neither of the upstairs ones went off at all. Ran fine, turned off.

This should have been the end of it, you would think.

 

But I’m still paranoid about it. I turned it back off for the night, then got up early to turn it on so that it would be warm when kiddo woke up, but it wouldn’t be running when I wasn’t awake. To do what exactly, panic? 

I’m letting it run tonight. It’s run through its cycle a few times already. I know logically that it is fine.

But I’m still a bit paranoid. “It’s kinda cool in here, shouldn’t it have kicked on yet, what if there is a problem and it shorted out and caught on fire, or what if the filter wasn’t lined up right and fell against the fan, and friction made it hotter than the furnace already was and it caught on fire?” style of thinking.

And I know the solution to such thinking is to have faith, and to give up my really pathetic illusion of being able to control…

Yet somehow that still doesn’t make it any easier to actually do so.

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Pumpkin muffins

Posted by blueraindrop on September 25, 2009

Pumpkin muffins

3 c sugar
1 c oil
4 eggs

1 t baking powder
2 t baking soda
2 t salt
3 1/2 t pumpkin pie spice

1 1/2 cans of pumpkin (15-16 oz sized… make sure it isn’t the premixed pie stuff)
2/3 c water

3 1/2 c flour

1 c raisins (optional)
1 c walnuts or pecans (optional) 

 

Preheat oven to 350.

Mix or stir the sugar, oil, and eggs together.

Add all spices, and mix really well.

Add pumpkin and water, mix again.

Slowly add the flour while still mixing.

Stir in raisins and nuts by hand.

Fill muffin tins or cupcake wrappers with 1/3 c of batter, stirring the mixture between batches if using raisins and/or nuts.

Bake for 22 minutes, or longer if using larger muffin sizes.

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