Ouch

I’m finding myself really hurting again.

I thought things were going a lot better… that things have stabilized more.

But, there was an incident yesterday when I ended up in tears missing the prince while I was on the phone with someone.

In addition to the email to him about his profile.

I’m just sort of feeling like I’m losing it to emotions again.

I need to stop caring…. I just don’t know how.

I need to figure out how to untie these attachments before they keep pulling me around every time he does something that tugs at them.

I need to reach the point that I don’t find myself wanting to look after him… to try and help him…

I need to stop missing him… to stop wanting to just hold him.

To stop wishing things were different…. and accept that they aren’t.

It just hurts.

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