I’m tired of feeling.
Of having emotions be so easily set off.
Of unraveling what is behind each one, attempting to untangle the strings being pulled beneath the surface.
Of trying to resolve deep messes to stop them from resurfacing in new and sometimes distantly removed ways.
I’m tired of trying to figure things out.
I just want things to be simple. For tears to be related to the event that provoked them, and nothing more.
For things to be just what they seem… nothing more.. and for surface solutions to resolve problems.
Maybe life is never really like that… and maybe its only pretending to treat it that way.
But sometimes life being complicated and everything having deep interwoven roots just makes me really tired.