What to do with a year

So, it looks like most likely I’ll have a year between the classes that just ended and the next classes within the college program.

And I know that usually when God pulls stuff like that it’s for a reason and there is a purpose behind it.

But what exactly that is I’ve yet to find out. What am I supposed to do with this year?

What do you do with a spare year of time to kill when you are broke and have a kid? It’s not exactly feasible to do a gap year thing and go travel or go do missions or something.

Financially… I need to get a job. But, given the previous failures at this.. I can’t say I have much optimism. I actually couldn’t even get hired at a 2 month seasonal position that paid minimum wage watering plants and running cash register at a tent for a greenhouse this summer… though at least I made it through both rounds of interviews to be considered.

I know better than to even mention before hired that I don’t expect it to last beyond a year, but, if it pays well, would I even have the confidence in future jobs to be brave enough to leave? School also involves clinicals after the first semester, so working full time through classes is pretty much completely out.

But then, maybe this is actually a way of this path ending, but putting it into my hands to accept this and follow through with making the choice to close the door. There have been lessons and purposes enough in the past year that I can see where its possible that school has already fulfilled its true reason, even if not fulfilling its “get a job” apparent reason.

They recommend in the letter that I take the chemistry and other theology class required during the year to get them out of the way. But, killing time with classes only sounds nice until you look at the numbers. The student loans through the government have a lifetime limit for the undergraduate level, even if you’ve already paid part of the previous ones off…. and with my previous classes, plus this past year of pre-reqs, plus the anticipated cost of two more years at a private college…. I’m already going to be getting pretty close to the line before it’s all said and done.

So I really don’t know right now.

Why are things like this never obvious and clear to me?


Forward and backward

Ok.. the token new years post.

This year it seems like my thought focus is a lot more forward than backward.

2008… well, was pretty bland. Mostly a steady slide downhill, with a few mostly intentionally made bright spots.

But 2009… well, I wonder what in the world 2009 is going to look like.

I suppose we never really know, no matter how much we think we do, but with things looking the way they do… unless things really bomb, this is probably the last year here. the last year of things being the same.

I find myself wondering where we will be next year at this time.. and there are so many different directions it could go, that i really can’t even begin to guess.

I suppose its just a feeling I’m not used to. Mostly, major life changes have been unexpected twists, or planned things gone wrong.

No matter what happens… I guess it will be different.

Year plan is over again

I’m discovering one thing I don’t really like about the one year reading plan I use.. (http://www.oneyearbibleonline.com/ and most of the tyndale one year bibles)

Namely, that when it hits December, the New Testament heads into Revelations, while the Old is in the prophets.

As much as I think in metaphors… having a double dose of “huh?” isn’t exactly my favorite reading section.

But, soon we will be back into creation… and Jesus on earth, as Genesis and Matthew start again.

Sort of an interesting transition… from end of the world to the start of the world.. from the prophesy to the fulfillment.